Images by Jackie Russo
Kaftan: Vintage; Sandals: India
In a universe where we are expected to expect the unexpected, it's difficult to understand why we are always looking for stability. There are insane things happening in my life through this blog. From attending 20-30 shows at NY fashion week and with every season I get better and better show invites [incl: Michael Kors, Prabal Gurung, Betsey Johnson, Herver Leger, Helmut Lang, etc.], sitting in some front rows, interviewing insane designers like Nickolas Kirkwood, Jen Koa, etc., connecting with super creative people around the world, having some of them recognize my work and like it [!!!], getting random requests in my inbox to write for people/ websites/ magazines especially Vogue India which I have done for almost 2 years, or just emails from photogs who want to shoot for DSM, to designing my first product, to actually being considered to be a part of a reality TV show! Almost all of which has just happened to me and I haven't sought. It's been too crazy to comprehend.
And I love my life so much more right now with all it's ups and downs. Trust me there are a lot of downs. Almost every day I tell someone close to me that every time I feel like things are going great, the same exact day or the day after something horribly wrong will happen and I feel like I have hit rock bottom. And it is never just a small good thing, it's a massive good thing and an equally massive bad thing. So the balance is still there except the amplitude and frequency is higher. See diagram below for explanation. Essentially I am unsure if this frequency is healthy cause it's too much to take so often. So I am just enjoying the excessive roller coaster ride and hoping not to throw up. Teaching myself along the way from my own mistakes and some from others on how not to loose myself, but also to not be afraid to just let go completely without reservations so I can see what I can be. Who knew a stupid blog could teach you so many life lessons.